know that i’ve given everything i had—
all of my heart.
surprised by joy
laid open by devotion
freed by belief
i refuse the bitterness
that comes with this.
our lives are what they are
by accident or design
and i will not fight a losing battle
on my own.
within the confines of this one life
i can say i loved
unguarded and raw
and it was perfect.
i feel the distance growing by the day
and i am helpless in the face of it
but i will not allow this to define me
i am not afraid.
there is no light at the end of this tunnel
so i will make my own.